I Guess I Am Back...

  I had a few surprises, I woke up Monday morning to Zahir telling me the blog was not off limits. He and his brother reworked it putting in new "baby-filters." There are things I am NOT allowed to do until HE tells me I can.

  Responding to comments is #1. Your comments to me now go through a daddy filter. He says he will not interact, he just wants to keep hurtful things away for now.

  I had a bad day at therapy session Sunday, and Zahir thinks it might help if I put it in writing. I came out of the doctor's office and my face was let's just say tear streaked. Zahir was about to comfort me, when the doctor requested he come into the office. Afterwards he took me for comfort food, then took me home, I skipped Church that evening. He just cuddled and held me until I fell asleep.

  Some have asked, where does a man whose religion frowns upon people who love differently take his boy for therapy. I know my man would move mountains to help me. Thankfully there are a good number of foreigners working in the medical professions here in Jordan. That does include shrinks, mine is the best. Doc can get me to open up about all shit I want to keep buried, and knows when I am bullshitting him.

  I want to keep the blog about my stories and current stuff. I will use the "Pages" for dealing with the past, and how it impacted a story. I am working on the first page. Z is right, it is time this blog went back to being a diary FIRST.

  Be well.

  Chase