Well I had a crappy day today. Seems to be a string of them these days. I have just had my second language tutor quit. He offered to give back Baba's money saying I was unteachable.
Oh sure I can learn to understand the words, but I physically cannot speak them. The son of a bitch who hurt me left me unable to make certain sounds. Without those the Arabic speaking world is closed to me. Four years later he is still fucking me. I know that last part wasn't what a Christian should say, but I'm am still a human being too and I'm very frustrated.
After the tutor left, Baba pulled me into his office. He explained it to me and hugged on me for a very long time saying it wasn't my fault, it just is what it is. He tells me we will look at the options tomorrow. I guess that's today.
Baba's eldest grandson has been hovering around me all day. He is a hard one to understand. He is only a year older than me, but treats me like one of the babies. When the new (replacement) furniture arrived he helped me arrange the sitting room.
All I know is with the crappy run of weeks I've had, as soon as Zahir gets off that plane Monday, I'm going to drag him by his balls to our bedroom. He's going to make this up to me. It is in his "contract!" The fine print says he is required to make his baby feel better.
Good night all.
Chase
Had a question asked via the Google Plus.
ReplyDeleteThe reason why it's important for me not only to understand Arabic but to be able to communicate in it is to give me a little more freedom.
Even though just about everyone here does speak English some of our clients refuse to.
It's hard to find a university class in Amman that is done solely in English. That is one thing that Baba wants is he wants me to experience.
At breakfast he proposed an idea of having me learn Arabic sign language. He wants me to have friends my own age.
Zahir is very much against that last part. But I think he understands his father's perspective.
With apologies to +BradL, Zahir just turned Anonymous comments back on, which turned off the Google Plus comments. Seems everyone here is trying to make me feel better, without asking me what that would take.
ReplyDeleteThey don't understand, I'm not sad. I may be a little lonely right now, but that fades. I'm used to doing things by myself.
If you are seeing this, Zahir knows the situation better than any of us on Google+. He is right to protect you. Sending love and positive thoughts your way.
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