Caught

Z found my files on Nifty. Hell he found everything, even my blog. He was pissed... At first anyway. Note to self, secure is not always secure.

I was shocked that he found my early crap on GayDemon. No I will not link to it. It was shit. God I have never seen him so angry. I offered to delete everything, I gave him back the tablet he bought me. He was confused but still fuming. I gave him his space. I went to my room and started packing my back pack. He walked in as I shoved my old worn old Pooh Bear into the top of the bag. 

He asked where I was going. I told him that I thought he would want me gone. He pulled me into his chest, replying never. In the end, he laughed about fantasies/stories. My blog on the other hand is an issue. I am going to have to keep specifics about locations and times a little foggy. He understands the therapeutic value of putting my thoughts, joys and yes fears into words. In the end he laughed and kissed me. He mocked my grammar errors in my new story (yes, he let me post it.) "My boy needs a refresher in English."

He read some of the other stories I am working on. Z gave me back my tablet, asking if I wanted to try some of the things I describe in my stories. I told him they were just stupid fantasy, occasionally dreams. Truth be told he pleases me more than I can say. "Frozen" confused him, "Does my baby see himself as a girl?" I told him no, I was just using it as a vehicle. I write about abandonment because it is a topic I know too well. He reminded me not everything gets a happy ending in life. I told him HE was my "Disney" ending. I asked him to forgive me for angering him. Z grinned down at me saying it was already forgotten.
 

"I will have to teach you better the world is not a safe place." He is right. He pointed out how some of my posts have been geotagged. I must be a little more careful. I guess I am not as smart as I always believed I was.

Some folks have asked what is up with your signature at the end of your blog.  I am using it to show state of mind. Chase is up, Nadir is bummed.

Nadir / Chase